ahah! im awake! late night drinking on my own again. it was good this time. really good. farah bought me another drink again. so yeah. joe, my classmate that works in starbucks bukit bintang, came around 2.30 after his work. bought him a beer and we just sat there and drank and talked. sometimes i just love to talk to that guy. he is like the only guy that really understands in my college that we can relate better. so yeah. went to drink last night because of everything. forgot my parents anniversary, jasmine's grandpa passed away, which reminded me of my grandpa when he passed away. i didnt know where she and i stand until today, which is just good friends. so yeah.

everythings been ups and downs for me. i was so happy and jumpy yesterday morning. being who im again was really, a relief. just to break free again, for that few little minutes. i just felt like that was it, im finally free, but when the bad news came, sigh ...

i might just go down to kl again today. joe said anything i wanted from starbucks is on the house, since he is the store manager and all. so yeah. free starbucks anywhere is good.

life goes on ... without you. i miss u. i love u. i will always do.

rick.